Drunken ramblings

I miss everything. I feel like I am observing my life and that feels like watching paint dry. I don't know what is going on but I can't seem to find anything to keep me feeling fulfilled. I bought a newish car and I didn't feel excited at all. I try to be social but 90% of people bother me. I try to hike but I am too fat. I don't know what to do except keep some semblance of the status quo.  I am talking to Her again and it seems to go pretty well. She seems to be doing pretty good as well. 

I have been looking to make new friends but that doesn't seem possible.  I am too shy and introverted i guess. I don't know. I dontbeven know why I am writing.  I just know its late and im bored lol. Big surprise there.