Wednesday last yr was full of hope,then vanished in the next 5 days...not sure how Im feeling, just seem to be "here" not crying , not much of anything, wish sometimes I could disappear..I havent enjoyed life in so long ,I am not sure what to do or say anymore, I am sure people are tired of hearing my story, I dont know, wish this would end ,I want to go back to a life that was full of life and energy, laughter and fun..I have only felt so much sadness and despair this past yr, I am so tired of it,I want a change but not sure how, how do I get rid of all this pain and fear,I dont know,things are no longer blk and wht, I dont know what they are,just grey..It still pierces my heart from the loss of my beautiful, bright and smart daughter, how do I pick up these pieces and go on to at the very least some kind of meaningfull life..How I wish I could go back in time....wishes and miracles ,really have no use for them anymore ,I dont think they really exist, It is what it is, you either are lucky and make it thru this life safe or you dont...there are no guarantees....
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There is one guarantee, we are all going to die. It\'s just to difficult to comprehend when our children go first. You don\'t pick up the pieces, you just endure and continue. The sun will shine again someday, it just seems like an eternity right now. I\'m so sorry you are having a difficult time right now. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Love Robin
huge hugs right now. huge hugs.
hi sweetie, i think that if i could just go back and have one more day with my son it would wonderful. but all of are days we aweaome so i wouldnt change them. i just try and take one moment at a time. i pray for peace for all of us love renee