So glad that Turkey day is over , not looking forward to Xmas..I went last night and met some of my Compassionate friends at the mall to set up the xmas there and we put all of our kids pics up ,it is so sad to see all of those kids on that tree, but nice to remember them..there were 6 of us and we even had a few laughs, havent done that in a long time...we went to dinner and discussed the next mtg, and the candle ceremoys planned..it was nice to be in company that understood and cared...off tonight to go swimming, one of my CF friends invited me a couple of them meet each week to go, I havent done anything in over a yr, but Its what I need cause I have been so depressed and they know what to say and how I feel and I feel so comfortable with them..so I am going to give it a try...Ashley AnnNot a day ,not a second goes by that you are not on my mind, I still dont understand how this happened and that it did happen..not to you..I have tried everything to somehow break this nightmare but..nothing worked..I am stuck with reality..Dad has been talking with the lawyers it is so hard for him,they are looking for the other drivers car..I wish I knew what happened I know you were always so careful 3 people said you stopped and looked why did he come speeding down why didnt we say go the other way...Please somehow we need to know ..I need to see you ...I might go to this pyschic that 1 from my group has gone to, Dad doesnt believe anymore, give him a sign!! it wont make life any easier but maybe give some peace.. we miss and love you so much...It really sucks not having you here how am I supposed to go thru life without my ASH!!! I need you...I LOVE YOULoveMom