well its taken just about a week but I think I am slowly rebounding, sometimes I want to scream and yell and tell the world how pissed I am .How could this happen it all floods back , why I thought the worst was almost over, but no reality is you dont ever get over the death of your child you dont leave this w/out a huge hole that can never be replaced but I need to find some other journey than what I had before take on a new role. altough many friends have moved on w/out me, though I dont think I would consider them friends anymore,there are a handfull that have kept calling and checking, they are the true friends,but I think what hurts the most is not hearing from friends and family and not remembering Ashleys birthday etc../oh well she will always be remembered and always be in my heart...heres to a more peaceful day....
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huge hugs and love from me.
i understand where you are at. yes it would be very good for you to find another way to direct your energy. hugs jan
I certainly don\'t think friends do things deliberately. They are just unsure if we want to talk about our kids or if it will hurt if they bring them up. I know my friends will tread lightly until I say something to put them at ease. Then things are fine. Go ahead and call them. Let them know you still need them in your life. I\'m trying to find my role as well. It\'s certainly no fun when I liked the one I was in. Hope you have a nice weekend. Thinking of you. Love Robin
I have had it up to here with all of the people who told me that they would be there for me to help me through this. Where the hell are they????? Here. That\'s where. Isn\'t it sad that we must receive the comfort that we need from perfect strangers? But isn\'t it wonderful that we can? Who needs them? Love & hugs, Colleen.
Yes thanks goodness for places like this, I would not have made it this far, I feel like I have the plague or something , there are a few but not many that still call, otherwise we are avoided...Thanks to all of you....
Love Kim
I have realized that in the end its only we who will remember and miss our children.No one else is actually affected.Take care.
We all need to find a direction. I keep looking. Friends are hard. My close ones are not close anymore and the so called friends are the real friends. You just don\'t know. Here for you whenever you need, lots of hugs, Jake\'s mom, kathy
I have found that few people stuck around. They just can\'t deal with the pain I\'m feeling. Thank God for this site. Peace, Rita