OK well back from the conference, was good ,some parts were hard, but all in all good..Unbelievable how many children die evey yr..so so sad...did learn some stuff did some crying even laughed some..had some good speakers and some ok, anyway met some really nice people who listened with open ears and open hearts to our story... Ashleyits almost 1 yr that you have been gone, I cant believe it ,I dont remember half of it..My heart aches for everyday that will never change, I guess Ive learned how to hold on to some of my emotions so to get thru each day ,I miss you and love you more than life itself I dont and will never understand why this had to happen to you.I hate it..I think of you in that cold ground and I just ache I want you back and still wait to wake up from this nightmare..Id sell my soul to get you back ,I tried everything nothing worked...I hope you knew I loved you with all my heart and then some you were my best friend my idol my precious daughter, that had her whole life ahead of her...