Well made it thru the 1 yr mark, it sucks...I went to the cemetary...why did this have to happen to you! it doesnt make any sense at all...so young so full of life and energy,seems so unfair,you were such a good person, you deserved to have a life a full long life, 17 was way too short,I read the stuff from your friends all now in college and its like salt in a wound, its so not fair you should be there. you should  have a boyfriend be studying,asking for money and having fun ...oh I hate this..I dont want you anywhere but here..I want you in the flesh I want to hug you and kiss you and see and hear you..life will never be full of joy or fun, just heartache...Ashley I wish I could have taken your place I would in a heartbeat..I just dont want to believe this...damn it not fair....I love you so much......