CecilBGreen

I need to learn to keep to myself. I look so stupid. I need to avoid exposing myself. Just work and only because I have to. Headphones on, don't interact unless needed. So hard to do but it needs to...

Just 2 examples of bullshit that I didn't need to see or hear this weekend....or ever for that matter."You need a man to straighten you out"No dating, no talking. Just club them over the head and...

When my car didn't pass inspection I handled it well. I called a shop and got a quote for brakes. I supposedly just needed the pads. In the morning I went to the shop and was told it would be a good...

I just feel so bad. So frustrated with myself. I keep losing my temper. I feel out of control and depressed, I guess. I want to find some balance and cool off the emotions. I want to quiet the...

So many voices yelling in my head. One keeps saying "stupid, stupid, stupid" over in over again. Watching any show that would interest me is near impossible. Women being stupid and allowing...

I just finished a phone conversation with my brother (abuser brother) I called him. I called him to see if he could get me some weed. I haven't smoked in over 25 years but I would love to have that...

I am getting panicky. The day started out ok except I was really tired. Then there was that mini presentation that I went to. Damn...The woman presenting her program/study was great. Then it came our...

Work was busy today. Most of it out of the office and into the field. This is a good thing. During my first hour a small cluster congregated behind my chair. They were networking/brainstorming. It is...

I can't think of a good reason to live. I will though. I will get dressed and head out to work, come home, do laundry, pay bills. Until one day I won't. What purpose is my life serving. I am not...

I was up until the early morning hours then slept in until about 10:30. Why do I do that??? It is going to make it even harder to get up for work tomorrow and I am already feeling like I am dragging...

I was on Ebay looking for a specific Steubenville pattern to see if what I had was worth selling when I saw a pattern called Rosebud. All of the sudden I saw my little girl panties. Tiny pink and...

Why do some people just drag things out? My daughter sold her car. I had been covering her insurance and not only did she move out a few months ago she sold the car a couple of weeks ago. Now I want...

I have been wanting to rip into some people. Work has been stressful, I am working hard on myself and just at my limit I guess.It is no secret that I struggle with my weight. It has become a...

I'm pissed and scared. My whole body hurts. It aches from one end to the other. Part stress part coming down with a case of fat. My body is holding my mind back and my mind is holding my body back....

So my crash came but only lasted a couple of hours. Some sobbing on the way to work but that was it. I felt like there was no hope for me. I feel like I will keep chasing my own tail. I feel like I...