Pink and Blue Flowers

I was on Ebay looking for a specific Steubenville pattern to see if what I had was worth selling when I saw a pattern called Rosebud. All of the sudden I saw my little girl panties. Tiny pink and blue roses on white cotton. I was pulling them down. They were wet and cold.
I had come in from outside and gone to the bathroom, stripped them off and started washing up. I felt kind of sick. Sick like bad, confused, ashamed sick. I don't remember what I was doing outside. I don't remember how my panties got wet.
Those panties have been flashing in my head every so often for weeks now. Sick, ashamed and scared. I guess I know why I dislike pastels so much...especially pink and blue.