VoltaireArcane
Status: Being a hypomanic idiot. oh hey feelings, it's been a while. Thought you guys were dead. Stick around for a bit maybe?
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- I snapped at my mum because she kept yelling at me and my brain chemicals were so extremely low that I was spacey and felt close to slipping into unconsciousness. Additionally my reaction time was slowed.And she was all "Oh so it's okay for you to...
- Story time! Gather 'round the magic story time carpet, y'all.The TooLong;Didn'tRead of it is;1) Here's a story about an encounter I had with a rude person2) My mental illness makes it as such that I cannot tolerate rude people. However.... you can't...
- http://psychrights.org/Stories/GeorgiaHiddenShame.htm(HEAVY/NEGATIVE CONTENT WARNING, I'll post lighter, easier to get through content later, and will reply to comments on my other casual post pretty shortly)This is the state hospital I was at in...
- Do you ever like... become obsessed with one thing, then the next day/week/month/year something entirely else????????2 years ago I got a couple pairs of these absolutely gorgeous Vivienne Westwood coloured pvc wedges, and loved shoes. Idk. I feel...
- Ok first thing's first. Borderline's all but confirmed for me. The nice lady at the outpatient center said the dichotomy of how I mentally build people up, dehumanize them, and then build them up again is classic BPD.Now... does anyone here feel...
- Ahhhh I'm back from CSU today. I was doing well but... I got triggered as soon as I got home, by my mother. She's just "No YOU have to control yourself when you get triggered" like... why can't she just make any effort to not trigger me? It's so...
- I'm going to try for inpatient tomorrow because I know I need it. If I get in, I'm going to miss my first few days of classes, so all I can do is email my professors in advance and hope for the best ehhh.I'm taking basic history and science and...
- DON'T READ IF SENSITIVE/LONG POST. Last negative post for a while probably because this is "the whole story."There are no good options for suicidality. You hover between that space of "not quite willing to risk coma/organ failure/being...
- Happy New Years you all~ What are some goals for 2015????My New Years was pretty badass. My friend took me to his friend's house and we shot off a decent quantity of fireworks. I got drunk. I'm writing this unable to sleep because I'm ill. Lol, oh...
- Extremely negative content warning.Honestly what does anything matter. ? I live inside of an identity crisis. My personality's iced over like some kind of black fungus eating away at signs of humanity.As a void that eclipses everything.My dreams are...
- TW for content involving racism, child abuse, and police brutality.I've had to step back from continually and religiously researching police shootings in the U.S. because there are new race-related police brutality cases cropping up almost on a...
- So um. There's not really a way to smoothly transition into this. One of my extremely close friends, is friends with my abuser. (again, we're talking psychological/emotional abuse. But my hatred for them is flaring up real bad right now.)They've...
- How do you get rid of them? I haven't slept well except maybe a few nights in about two weeks.I crashed around 10 maybe. I'm not sure how to describe the dream, but I've had it before. I was in my house, but all the rooms were dark. Post-apocalyptic...
- How's everyones' Christmases going????I've been up all day and am exhausted and I think I'm abusing caffeine at this point, or using it as a substitute for sleep usually. Which it definitely is not. I shiver like a Chihuahua a lot right now.I did...
- There's a weird thing with me (and others of you right? I'm not actually weird, I mean not literally) where I forget the normal proportions of a person's body and feel surprised when I see them.Like... I feel very small. But not in a good way, not...