VoltaireArcane
Status: Being a hypomanic idiot. oh hey feelings, it's been a while. Thought you guys were dead. Stick around for a bit maybe?
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- My mind's switching a lot today!~~Not that long ago I screamed at my mum and told her Christmas was Capitalist Hallmark card bullshit, basically. Just being a real sour-ass and hating myself a lot. I felt awful afterwards and sort of awkwardly...
- Anything goes, but some themes-'Bipolar songs' this is a challenge. Put a snippit of lyrics with or without an explanation of why.-Calming music/moodscapes-Recent music flingshttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4NYHRDrnQs4 I'll start us off strong....
- It's like being corrupt in thought and lacking empathy for about... 15 minutes to an hour. Then feeling guilty and suicidal and desperate, sometimes at the same time actually, then nothing. It's becoming scarily common for me...(I realize guilt and...
- Heavy trigger warning, this discusses a sort-of suicide attempt and suicidal thoughts and sort-of not-recommended medicine use:I haven't taken Seroquel or anything similar in a very long time.Two nights ago I took a full 200mg Seroquel (I only ever...
- Who's excited for the holidays? Wait, you're not? Stressed? Ah.... It's that time again. Pretty sure this is the first year that no part of me is excited for Christmas. xD But I'm getting to babysit my cousin's cats for a month, and she's gonna...
- Thank you everyone for the comments, PMs, and hugs from my other thread where I kind of lost it.... Sorry for getting all freaky ugh. You guys kick ass for being so much older than me and having gone through so much more shit and still being here,...
- I need to know if Suicide Hotline volunteers and counselors can GPS track your phone call as you're talking to them and secretly motion to someone else on the Suicide Prevention Team to send an ambulance to the address you're calling from?Maybe I'm...
- I feel like I'm seriously ill and no one is buying it. Everyone thinks I'm crying wolf and trying to get sympathy and pain pills.I ran out of Tramadol on... I wanna say Friday. I called my aunt 'hysterical' Friday night, she offered to take me to...
- My mood has dipped to a very empty place, an uncomfortable low. I can only really describe it as colorless, as a void of perception without any filter at all. No context, kind of dissociative. Not even a dull background noise. The weirdest part is,...
- (TW for those faint-hearted) getting suspended! I don't have the funds for a private suspension, so I'm going to see if I can offer to be a performance artist in any upcoming shows instead, or possibly become an apprentice.I'm very excited, although...
- This thread is going to be about items that are forbidden from being brought into a Crisis Stabilization Unit, or CSU. It can include commonly banned items, or really bizarre rules specific to one place. Off-topic as specified by OT, but this can be...
- I'm reluctant to go to the ER for medical assessment and help because I've been so many times... But I feel flu-like and just very uncomfortable and have for about a week.I'm uninsured and don't have a regular doctor. Ugh. Waht do?
- Exactly as the title says. Anything soft, timid, whimsical, sensually whispering songs, to things that go boom! Loud, in-your-face grit, either done in an over-exaggerated style, or sewn together from the scrap's of someone's shattered dreams.I'll...
- I don't know what happened... The lithium suddenly doesn't work at all.My family's getting together for Thanksgiving. I have such extreme hatred towards them and I know it's just my dissociation because it is literally a small percentage of my...
- I'm actually a very possessive and jealous person with a select FEW people, even though I hide it well.I never really fully "get over" someone, if even in retrospect, I honestly did love them. Even if I don't want them to myself anymore, my stomach...