VoltaireArcane
Status: Being a hypomanic idiot. oh hey feelings, it's been a while. Thought you guys were dead. Stick around for a bit maybe?
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- Hey, question! Does anybody here speak more than one language????If so, congratulations, you've impressed me.Because I can't do that. I wish I could, dangit.I got a message today in Norwegian! I'll have to use google translate to reply. How cool...
- I think. (still gonna take it though because I'm really afraid of my unmedicated self right now) That and the "energy" vitamins, maybe. I stopped the caffeine at 4pm yesterday and didn't get to sleep until 4 or 5am today, I don't recall.I started...
- My friend. We'll call her K.Every time I have a painfully awkward interaction with somebody, I just want to melt into her. It's so refreshing how we converse so fluently and so well together.She was awake for a while this morning and we sent each...
- This guy!It caught me way, way, way waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay off-guard, because it was somebody from the queer/genderfluid/transgender community. I got spit on, on my own turf! What the hell?This person added me on facebook, they were from my...
- Electric Wizard- Dopethrone (the whole album sort of blurs together in a good way, also it's great for art projects) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eaMbKZPBruUAnimals as Leaders- self-titled album https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dss8_-TLPA0I've...
- I don't feel like ranting blog-style or even writing at all, so I'm trying to figure how to word this as shortly and sweetly as I can.When I was 13 or 14 or so and seriously angsty about I'd say ehh... 90% of my friends aside from my eventual...
- Honestly she's kind of flaky with making plans. She says she'll be here wednesday and take the metro, but I can't be sure of that, so I've made up my mind that I'm going to go there by myself even if she stands me up or can't get here.But holy hell,...
- **VERY HEAVY TRIGGER WARNING**(also not going in Crisis Center because I'm not a danger to myself right now)**also disclaimer that I rapid-cycle and go from being a happy-ass to wanting to end it all and that while this is basically my everyday...
- Will read like a "cool story, bro" type of blog entry (which is why I marked it as Off Topic even though some beepers do hoard), so I'll make it brief, goddess knows I talk about myself too much as it is, but please please if you're comfortable...
- I just feel really sad. Not like, hysterically so, just melancholy.And I want to tear up my thighs with a razor.Nobody's ever going to look at me and assume I am anything other than a girl, I don't look studlyI have a round stub nose, long hair...
- These medicines have SAVED MY SOUL these past few (difficult) days.Although still with fussy mornings and sloggish afternoons.... my agitation has gone to rest.I was reluctant to use Valium and Diphenhydramine for agitation (allergies too, though),...
- Like an actual hating of yourselfI know this is just a baaaad combination of gender dysphoria (I want people to look at me and not be able to tell what gender I am at all), body dysmorphia, and being stuck with bad circumstances, butHonestly I hate...
- I rhymed. Lol.Pixies- I Bleed https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZqhHPl_oCmU Deftones- Change (In the House of Flies) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zy41l5iYoBwBrand New- Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot "You are the smell before it rains, you are the...
- Being frail and sickly- no job- no money- cannot go anywhereIt's a simple formula that's unfortunately really lame and just.... depressing. I could be anything, and no one even knows. They don't know me. I don't know them.I don't even know how to...
- What are some ways you all pay the bills? (I realize this is a personal question. Please only answer if you want to.)I just got my Disability Appeal paperwork. I'm sick and fatigued almost constantly now, but the need for me to find work that will...