MaxPB

I shut off my phone and avoided Facebook all day. Not sure which is worse, not having your phone ring at all on your birthday, or slogging through a bunch of meaningless conversations with people who...

I went to sleep maybe 2am, awake at 4 with a knot of terror in my gut.  As the US celebrates thanksgiving I sit in my home hungry.  I have just enough money to send my son to school today, and food...

My dear friends it's been more than a year since I withdrew from the warmth, the comfort and the support that I have found here in this forum.A year of thinking about and praying for my brave warrior...

I want to send everyone New Years blessings, but can't figure out this new interface and not feeling well enough today to fiddle with it.  So to whoever reads my journal, bless you my friend, I wish...

My dear friends, I am in isolation, guarding the portals of my mind vigilantly, allowing only thoughts of healing and beauty and light.  And I do believe I am beginning to experience a shift...A few...

Bless you my dear friends.  I see your hugs, for some reason cannot send hugs.  So sending you my love and my blessing, sending healing for your heart, body and spirit.In Jamaica we say 'whole...

My spirit wants to get up and MOVE!  It wants to be out and about in the world.  It wants to be stimulated and excited and productive.  It wants to problem solve and to create and to participate...

My dear friends, I see your hugs.  Bless you.  I will come back and read them I promise and catch up on journals too.I have been keeping an emotional log and was pleased to note that I made it...

"Sometimes discouraged but not defeated, cast down but not destroyed..I believe its turning around for me " - VaShawn Mitchellhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZzbKwcC-Xmo&index=3&list=RDgQDhVZ1gzqkMy...

I found a name for my brokenness and now I don't need it anymore.  I was told once that many survivors of childhood trauma derogate and diminish the experience.  Yes bad things happened but people...

I received the diagnosis many years ago and dismissed it. Now I look back and wonder how I could have missed it?BPD describes the reality of my existence perfectly. It explains so much. The inability...

My son's court date was yesterday.  I did not go, instead I spent the day curled around my pillow and  bawling out loud from the bottom of my belly.  So much pain, how can one heart process so...

Before CFS I would not have listed self-pity as a significant part of my reality.  But as my ability to control the factors in my external world have diminished, I have developed an increasing...

My sister is a sweetheart. She paid for my trip and went out of her way to make me comfortable.  I got to meet her two adopted daughters and they are adorable.  And her mom is just the most caring,...

My dear friends I can't say enough how sincerely grateful I am that you take the time to read my journals and to offer your encouragement and support.  I want you to know it has helped so much when...