FallenAngel

I didn't make it to work today.  I woke up crying, sobbing and then my mind and body just shut down because it could not deal with the amount of pain I was in.  I'm starting to understand this...

It's been a couple of days since I've written.  The kids were here Monday night for dinner and yesterday I had grief counseling.  I only have one more free session of counseling, but I'm going to...

 I've been wanting to put this in my journal for some time now, and today just seemed appropriate.  I wrote this for Gene in the first days following his death.  I read it at his services only by...

I woke up crying again this morning.  Will this pain ever get easier to deal with?  I miss Gene every minute of every day. The weather isn't  helping much.  The sun was out when I woke up but now...

Well, I made it through another week.  Yesterday marked 3 months since Gene's death.  I broke down at work yesterday and had to run out to my car.  I called my sister on the phone and she talked...

Well, I woke up crying yesterday and didn't stop for three hours.  The pain and sorrow were so overwhelming my body hurt, and my heart was breaking all over again.  I didn't make it to work...

Another day I've made it through. Seems that's all I can do is get through one day at a time.  I ended up running out to my car today because the grief hit me so hard and I couldn't stop crying.  I...

I had another dream about Gene last night.  These dreams are so real I can feel him touching me.  We were here at the house and we had company but we were trying to sneak away to be alone.  I woke...

Eleven weeks without my love, my life, my strength.  I want to thank each and everyone of you for being here for me even though you are all dealing with your own grief or otherlife changing issues....

I finally got my laptop back and I'm finally able to get back here and catch up.  My desktop system downstairs is just soooo sloooowww.  It got to frustrating to try to get here.  But I'm back. ...

Oh, I'm missing my laptop so much.  My son's laptop had to be sent in for repair so he's borrowed mine til he gets his back and this desktop system I have downstairs is so slow and annoying.  You'd...

Well, my son has borrowed my laptop until his is repaired, so I've missed a day on writing.  Just as well, I've been feeling so bad that yesterday not only did I not make it to work, but I slept...

I feel as though the "fog" I've heard about after losing someone is beginning to lift.  I'm feeling worse instead of better this weekend.  I've spent the better part of both days in bed sleeping...

OK.  So I went out to finish mowing the grass I started yesterday before the rain came and it was a fiasco!  The belt on the riding mower popped off and I noticed it had a tear in it.  No big...

Well, it's been a really hard week but I've made it through if only moment by moment.  I'm feeling rather sad this morning and missing Gene so much.  I only got to work two days last week, but it...