FallenAngel

Today is my "Heart Walk" day for the American Heart Assocation.  I raised over $600 in Gene's memory.  I'm really looking forward to it.  I hope it will encourage me to get back to walking...

Dear Gene,  It has been four weeks now since you were taken from this world.  I miss you so very much, but you know that already.  You were my strength, my world, my love.  I don't understand why...

Had a bad day today.  I'm doing a "Heart Walk" on Saturday in Gene's honor for the American Heart Association.  I have a site where people are making donations and it has a picture of Gene up.  I...

It will be four weeks tomorrow since I lost Gene.  I'm so overwhelmed with sadness.  I'm spending my energy just trying to get through every minute of everyday.  By the time I get home from work,...

Oh Gene, why did you have to leave.  My whole world is turned upside down and the pain is more than I can bear.  I miss you with every fiber of my being and my soul yearns to see you again.  The...

Had my first session with the grief counselor this afternoon.  I like her alot.  I cried most of the time and talked about my fears and anxiety.  The things I've been worrying about most are the...

Today is Gene's birthday. He would be 58 today.  Last night we had his favorite dessert, apple pie and ice cream. I'm feeling a little stronger today and will try to get some hours in at work.  I...

I woke up crying this morning.  I had a really bad day yesterday, and today is starting out any better.  It's raining here, and I just want to crawl back into bed and sleep, it's the only peace I...

I don't know how to go on right now.  I spend most of my day fighting back tears and when I'm finally alone I can't stop crying.  I miss my loving Gene so much, my heart is breaking.  I just want...

I feel like I have nothing to give right now.  My pain is so deep and just trying to get through each minute feels like climbing a mountain.  I come home and look around and don't have the ambition...

Made it to work another day, but sitting here and all of a sudden my mind started thinking about calling Gene.  He used to call me everyday on my way to work.  Then the sadness overtakes me and I...

Made it through another day.  Wasn't a great day, but I got some things done at work and a couple small tasks at home.  I have no ambition to clean or do much of anything right now. Just getting...

Well, I made it to work this morning.  Big accomplishment considering yesterday was such a bad day.  I'm bored, nearly to tears, and wishing I had more leave time so I wouldn't have to be here.  I...

Bad day, bad bad day.  Can't stop the tears from flowing.  It's like a pain I've never felt before and it's not any easier today than it was two weeks ago.  If I didn't need my health insurance so...

OK.  I'm at work and I'm about to totally lose it.  What am I supposed to do?  I feel so helpless and out of control sometimes.  I can't just leave and I don't feel like I can stay....