FallenAngel

Another week over and I'm still standing.  I can't believe it's September already and it will soon be six months since Gene's been gone.  I didn't make it to work on Tuesday.  I just couldn't...

I'm glad to have the day off, but the house is so empty and quiet it makes me sad.  I still cry every morning and don't know when this will ever stop.  Thankfully the kids will all be here later...

Well, I made it through the whole week at work, not without some bad moments, but I made it in everyday last week.  I'm going to try to do seven hours a day next week.  We'll see how that goes.  I...

My grief is too heavy and the sadness too much to carry around some days.  There are moments when all I want isjust one minute of peace, one moment that I feel normal.  But it doesn't happen. ...

Doing a little better today.  Made it through work but it was pretty boring.  I got a letter in the mail from the attorney I interviewed with last week saying he hired someone else, no big...

I'm having a hard time right now and I thought I be feeling better at this point.  Nothing feels right, nothing feels good.  I need to find a way through this and keep my sanity.  I was thinking...

It's a rainy Saturday morning here.  I've got to take my mother to the grocery store today.  It's not my favorite thing to do as she takes hours in the store as if it was a day trip.  I know I...

Had a really bad day today.  When I wasn't sleeping, I was crying and thinking how I'd give my life if Gene could have his back.  He was so much stronger than I am and I believe he'd be handling...

It's Sunday morning.  I wake up feeling sad.  The house is now so empty without Gene that the silence is deafening.  Gene had a presence that filled the house.  Now that's gone.  I want to cry,...

I realized this morning that I'm afraid to move on past my grief because I think if I do I will leave Gene behind and I feel so close to him when I'm crying and grieving.  I know this might sound...

As hard as it is for me to be in the house on the weekends, it's so sweltering outside all ready this morning I think I'm going to have to find some "inside" work to do.  Just got done cleaning out...

I keep asking myself, Who am I now?  Who am I without Gene?  My whole life was defined by our relationship, our hopes, our dreams together.  Now that I'm on my own I feel so lost.  How do I...

The party on Saturday was a blast.  Everyone had so much fun and the kids had me laughing all day.  They set up a slip and slide with three tarps I had laying around.  Then they decided to use...

Ahh, Saturday morning and I managed to sleep in until almost 9 a.m.  I woke up at my regular time, 6 a.m, and decided to go back to sleep.  I'm so glad I don't have to go to work.  I've got plenty...

I'm so sad today.  I made it through work ok, but now the tears are flowing and I'm feeling so lost.  Each day I move forward I realize more deeply that Gene is really gone and it hurts even...