Another day I've made it through. Seems that's all I can do is get through one day at a time.  I ended up running out to my car today because the grief hit me so hard and I couldn't stop crying.  I didn't sleep very well last night.  I kept tossing and turning and just couldn't get comfortable.  Then I heard a cat fight out back and had to get up and let mine in, that was 2 a.m.  Then I was awake again at 4 and finally got up at 6.  I'm really tired tonight.  I saw my family doctor today and she was really concerned about how I was holding up.  She was also Gene's doctor.  We talked for quite some time and I reassured her that I'm doing the best i can.  She seems to think I'm doing well considering I'm back to work and keeping myself busy around the house.  She said she'd like me to get out more and I'm thinking of going to New Jersey at the end of the month to visit with some friends.  That gives me something to look forward to.  We'll see if I make it.   

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Aha! You are a cat person! No wonder I like you! ;~)
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I am so sorry for your pain and grief. I heart goes out to you.
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Angel,
This may be hard to read, but I can tell that you were so loved by Gene... that is why you feel this way. I had the same love from Sheri. We were so lucky. We need to always know that they want us to move forward, even when we do not want to.........
Mike
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I have days where I swear I should have bought stock in Kleenex because I use so many of them. Spending time with others helps me out a lot...it helps to distract me even if it\'s just a short time. Hang in there....we\'ll get through this...

Love,
Judy