FallenAngel

Well, I've managed to sleep through most of the day because being awake is just too hard today.  My first wedding anniversary without Gene is by far the hardest day yet.  I made it through his...

This past weekend was very hard.  Gene and I met on Memorial Day 24 years ago.  We were both invited to a "family" picnic by friends.  Gene knew I would be there, but I didn't know he would.  I...

Woke up crying again this morning.  I was dreaming of Gene again and I didn't want to wake up because then I feel so sad and overwhelmed.  I cried for about two hours then decided to drag myself...

OK.  I'm doing much better today.  After I signed off yesterday I got my butt out and mowed my own grass.  My neighbor and his son have been doing it for me since Gene died.  All I can say is I'm...

Just got home from work and I'm missing Gene so much the tears are just flowing.  I miss everything about him, his touch, his kiss, his voice.  How do I go on without him, I just don't know.  This...

One more day to make a whole week at work.  I've again managed to keep myself busy, so it's been easier this week.  I woke up crying again this morning.  I had a dream about Gene that he had his...

One day I'm doing ok, then the next I feel like I've been hit by a train of sorrow and tears.  I've managed to stay pretty  busy at work this week, and that certainly helps.  Being bored at work...

I'm not doing so bad today.  I made it through work without crying.  It helped alot that I was busy most of the day.  It's the boring days that really get to me right now, but they always have. ...

It's raining this morning, slow and steady.  Pretty much how I feel I'm getting along, slow but not so steady.  Lately all I want to do is sleep.  I've been laying down every afternoon for about...

It's been seven weeks since Gene's death.  Just writing those words brings on the pain again.  It's the reality of it all that hits me so hard and brings the tears flowing.  The house is so quiet...

I had a dream about Gene last night and although i don't remember the details I woke up crying this morning.  I called in to work and told them I wouldn't be in.  I'm doing the best I can but some...

Well, I made it through another day.  One more and I'll have made a whole week at work.  Cried this morning before I left, but haven't felt overwhelmed at all today.  One step forward, now just...

Well, made it through one more day at work and have only cried once today.  I had grief counseling yesterday afternoon.  I really like my counselor, she is so patient and a very good listener.  I...

Made it through another day of work and only broke down once this morning.  I also made it down to the restaurant yesterday for dinner.  My son is the chef and he makes the most outstanding seared...

For some of us, today will be bittersweet.  I'm so thankful to have my son, but it's my first Mother's Day without Gene.  He used to take me to the farm every Mother's Day and I'd pick out all the...