FallenAngel

Stress is my enemy. I'm usually pretty even keeled, but the last few days have elevated my stress level to the point where a smoke looks awful good and awful bad at the same time. Yesterday was...

Bad, bad day. Took me an hour to convince myself that a cigarette was Not going to cure the problem. Been trying to call my "dad" since Saturday with no success. Got REALLY MAD today and left a...

I've had a very challenging weekend, but no real cravings for cigarettes. I know that smoking is not the answer and certainly won't fix the problems. My stepdad left my mom this weekend without...

I'm starting to lose track of the days, I've got my eye on that one month mark which will be Wednesday (I think). I'll have to check the calendar. I'm feeling really good and looking forward to the...

I really starting to feel great about my decision to quit smoking. I am reading as much literature as I can on the subject and educating myself on the challenges of quitting. Today is day 24. 6...

After finally exploring the rest of this site, I see how some people could fit into many different categories. I know I should add myself to a few communities. I have suffered from depression,...

Ok. Now I'm not sleeping. I go to bed and wake up every hour or so, look at the clock and toss and turn all night. Other than being tired, I'm doing good. I still want that smoke after every...

I really want a smoke right now. Aghhhhh! Ok. This has to get better. I'm eating grape tomatoes and I've almost killed the whole pint. Deep breaths, short walks and grape tomatoes. How's that...

Yippee! Three weeks today. I'm still having trouble after meals. I still miss those. I now smell cigarettes on people in the stores. It's a good thing we can't smell it when we're smoking. It...

Day 19: Well, I'm not using anything right now. Just "cold turkey". I don't want anything to remind me that I used to smoke. I'm totally in denial about ever having smoked (lol). Is this good or...

Feeling pretty darn good today. The cravings were not as bad yesterday as they were the day before, and I'm not as irritable. I've also made up my mind to try and not even think about smoking. ...

Not a great day, just ok. Have had bad cravings to smoke. Ate just about everything that didn't move last night. This is really hard...I honestly didn't expect it to be. Silly me. Ok, I know...

Waiting for the day when I can click excellent. This is really hard. Went home last night and found a little bear and a card on the dining room table from my husband. The bear is holding a star...

Well, today is day 15 for me. I've been reading entries since I quit on 1/1 and decided to start my own. I turned 50 this year, and decided I had smoked long enough. I began weaning myself off...