Joanieslegacy
Status: Just want to get over the hump and feel normal again...
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- Not sure what to say as I am not feeling positive due to spending the last 5 days alone in my house basically except for a trip to get groceries but I guess I want to to say if your feeling alone..just know your not alone in that feeling. If that...
- Due to bad weather, I have been off work Friday and Saturday. What should be a good thing has just taken the wind out of my sails in that I have literally spent most of it in bed. My depression is at peak and I just can't seem to claw my way...
- I took the Borderline Personality test..and to my surprise I scored a 23 which says I am likely to have a Borderline diagnosis. :/ I also took the second test on personality disorders and was further surprised. I am starting to think perhaps I am...
- Regarding my post on Therapy, what if my "friend" was right? What if I am an undiagnosed Bi-Polar or Schizophrenic? What if I have a possible Borderline Personality? What if all along it was not the men I have dated that were the problem, but me?...
- I am sure I have shared this before, but I am sharing again to hopefully lift some spirits today. I don't usually write poetry that is in a positive light but I did this one. I feel Love is not a concept that can be easily defined, and that it is...
- I was going to Therapy awhile back and I stopped for a few reasons. Some seem valid, some maybe not so much. My therapist seemed to connect with me but never got to the source of my real issue, which is mainly my fault as I have such a block about...
- I an curious as to how many of us have repeated patterns seen by us as children from our dysfunctional parents? How many suffered from or seen abuse and addiction in their own homes growing up? I even recall begging my mother to leave my alcoholic...
- Just some days I don't have words, I express myself through poetry. Hope those that are going through the chaos will soon find peace..love and light."Manipulate me with your cruel games,it is on me you put the blame..Your words like daggers pierce...
- Ok, He just left a message he is going to come see when he gets off work.Not a question, not a call me. He is just going to come see me. What do I do?
- Just watched Wide Awake with Katy Perry and it really inspires me. To me it tells me to trust your inner self, to not let false words or promises cloud your judgement, to depend upon your own strengths and abilities. Roar is like that as well. To...
- Still managing to stay NC, even after non-stop calls and texts to both home and work since last Wed. but it is wearing on me. :(I am not sure why but I am starting to feel bad about not confronting him and just telling him this just won't work. We...
- At about day 4 of constant calls and texts without receiving a reply from me and he even tried contacting me at work where I simply have not been answering. Last night he got past the block either with *67 or using a friends phone and again this...
- The calls are starting at work. :(Just got a call at work and as I am the only one here and recognized the number when it popped up, I chose not to answer. Then I received a text as I can't block texts. The text says " Your phone is jacked."Then...
- Well, the contact has started and I am thus far staying strong. I realize if I let him get to me in any from, be it phone, email, social site, anything, he has too much power to gain access back into my life. I can't even be friends with him as he...
- I have often wondered how come it is abusers get to make the rules and standards? My last ex whom I have been on and off with for about 3 years now seems to be one of the worst at this. I recall him even sending a text once saying I will let you...