Physical & Emotional Abuse Support Group
Abuse is a general term for the treatment of someone that causes some kind of harm (to the abused person, to the abusers themselves, or to someone else) that is unlawful or wrongful. No one deserves abuse, period. Abuse can be emotional, physical, or sexual.
Still managing to stay NC, even after non-stop calls and texts to both home and work since last Wed. but it is wearing on me. :(
I am not sure why but I am starting to feel bad about not confronting him and just telling him this just won't work. We can't be lovers, friends, or whatever he thinks this is. I have looked up how to break up with a disordered personality, what are the signs of a borderline personality vs a bipolar personality and how to handle breaking off a relationship of any kind with them and all it is doing is making me feel worse.
I don't know that that is what he is as he has never said so, but he does take a lot of the same anti psychotics and he seems to have depressive and manic episodes. With his pot smoking and other pills he takes just because he likes them, its hard telling. As he has told me he suffers from Tourettes, ADD and OCD, and takes stuff for all that..God I don't know anymore.
It's like it gives him a valid exuse for any behaviours or actions and I am just suppose to suck it up and deal with it and when he blows hot and cold and decides to reenter my life, just let him and be gracious.
I have to go out to eat with my father tonight and act as if I am ok when really I am a nervous wreck, have not been able to eat and just want to go to bed and sleep after work.
I am not sure why but I am starting to feel bad about not confronting him and just telling him this just won't work. We can't be lovers, friends, or whatever he thinks this is. I have looked up how to break up with a disordered personality, what are the signs of a borderline personality vs a bipolar personality and how to handle breaking off a relationship of any kind with them and all it is doing is making me feel worse.
I don't know that that is what he is as he has never said so, but he does take a lot of the same anti psychotics and he seems to have depressive and manic episodes. With his pot smoking and other pills he takes just because he likes them, its hard telling. As he has told me he suffers from Tourettes, ADD and OCD, and takes stuff for all that..God I don't know anymore.
It's like it gives him a valid exuse for any behaviours or actions and I am just suppose to suck it up and deal with it and when he blows hot and cold and decides to reenter my life, just let him and be gracious.
I have to go out to eat with my father tonight and act as if I am ok when really I am a nervous wreck, have not been able to eat and just want to go to bed and sleep after work.
You are also really concerned about how he feels, what he thinks should happen, what he feels you should accept. What about what YOU want? What about what YOU think you want to accept in your life? That's what matters most.
He has treated you badly - regardless of the reasons - and therefore, you owe him nothing.
Today there has been no contact from him. Perhaps he has given up.
I am feeling some relief.
I cannot let my empathy override his treatment of me. Thank you everyone.
I have been keeping my cell off. Oddly enough he hasn't tried it.
I have been in the bathroom, sick, most of the workday.
The only thing I can think of is that he is fighting with his girls he has on the side, the ones he has sex with, or simply he has issues with the fact that I have disappeared from his life.
All I know is he is affecting not only my emotional and mental state but my physical state. I hope he stops soon. :(