arfie
Status: knowledge is all past tense. i can't **know** a thing until it has already happened. stay in the present tense. stay ignorant.
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I wrestled through the last of my sleep in dreams of drowning this morning. They werenae happy dreams but they werenae mean enough to tip my nightmare meter. Proof unavailable, but there is room to...
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It is good to keep an open mind, but not so open that your brain falls out. ~Author UnknownAnxiety and its spawn, hyper-vigilance are mean nags. As I seek the serenity of acceptance that the housing...
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I sure wish F-Word (Faith) was as simple as the Born Again crowd advertises. Just flip that switch and let your high-power security light glare. "Little Lights" donae seem to work for *Them* any...
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Surviving child sex trafficking gave me an especially detailed insight to just how depraved and evil humans can be. I'm pretty hard to shock on that score and even harder to interest. Yea, yea,...
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This weekend found Hubs and I with enough time for grown-up dialog while the siblings enacted my vision of the wrap-around porch we had built around the new manufactured house. As hoped, the children...
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It hasnae ever occurred to me that "Date" is a trigger word for me, but as I have worked through the psychotic whiplash of the daycare mother hustling her petite form through the door like a HS Mean...
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The busy mother who ran from me at the day care appears to have triggered some pretty deep fears about assuming the over-aged Mom role for these 3 orphans. I look around the earnest young and busy...
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For the life of me, I canae seem to recall when I first heard that term, "Play Date." For certain, my sons were old enough that I could breathe a sigh of relief over being disqualified from the...
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Been trying to tackle the psych evaluation questionaire in the adoption packet. Mind fuck city. . . The questions are geared to middle aged couples. You know. . . Those folks I havenae figured out...
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Of course there needs to be room for the socially unacceptable emotions, as well in any personal norm. Even Jesus experienced anger, sorrow, regret, etc., etc. Socially acceptablle or knot, a diverse...
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30 odd years after my still young son went volcanic and became a regular in ISS, I still donae know the words of "ISS." When dealing with the childish issues which lead a student to ISS, acronymic...
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Legal adoption is the reccommended next step if we want to get The State bureauracies out of the equation for the future of the grandchildren. The caseworkers have all been wonderful but they are...
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The flock care has been in steady decline since the turkey train fell off its tracks. How many normals ago was that? How many months? Facts available, but at the moment I donae care enough to do the...
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Big Bro's social breakthrough this weekend ended with him looking a bit like a junkie who has been sober for a while, then found a taste of their drug of choice. He was spitting hate and venom when...
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I have begun plying the finger-pointing exercise to my processing of my strictly personal PTSD Barbie psychosis. This is where I place an effigy of the latest person to trigger the strictly personal...
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