arfie
Status: knowledge is all past tense. i can't **know** a thing until it has already happened. stay in the present tense. stay ignorant.
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I seem to have given up on what I used to call, "The Urban Homestead." Most of that psycho snot knot remains a silent conversation between Hubs and I, but the sneezes from that hall of closed doors...
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Thoughts and energies are all over the map today, times 5. Do I need a reality check for wondering if that not every day needs a focus? I make far more discoveries on the days I *just* go with...
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The passing of Halloween feels like a bit of a landmark for Hubs and I. The displays were first springing up when the funeral chaos began. The childish campaign for costumes, et al, was Big Bro's...
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The file folder of parent pictures I managed to cobble together yesterday pleased the 2 older children tremendously. Their favorite was a Kiss-the-Bride picture from their wedding. I am thinking to...
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I be fighting with myself over whether to bump the mood icon up a notch on this entry. Both older children slept with me last night and I didnae sleep well for the squeeze onto the crack between the...
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Yesterday wasnae as magical as the fragile rhythm we had established in the early weeks of the custody shuffle, but it was the smoothest we have felt since the tragedy a bit more than a month ago. A...
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5 turkeys disappeared from the hay barn somewhere between Saturday sunset and Sunday morning. No substantial forensic evidence to conjecture by. Just gone. Two whites are all that are left of the...
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In recent years, I have been using a "Library" analogy, among many others, to work through some the places Hubs and I herstorically spring into brutal tit-for-tat sessions. He is from the upper...
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As my processing of the legal/coercive subterfuge from the other grandparent house has perked through the grinds of maternal grief, to the sense that their posturing should receive the same walk-away...
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Is there a centered mass of my brain synapses dedicated to my foreign language studies? There is a fierce knot on the left side of my skull which feels like an old friend who grows painfully...
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In my head, my daughter-in-law still calls me, "Monster-in-law." She still swears that she met my son first, even though the HS buddy who introduced us was at the funeral to confirm. "She just...
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In last night's grievous quiet, I wrote a letter to the other grandparents. I already know Hubs willnae approve. He has been busying out like a bachelor executive and doesnae approve of much that...
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As I attempt to process the meaning of or even the name for the legal action spewing from the other grandparents, still unable to bring myself to play the game, the wandering wonder is, "Am I...
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This morning's whisper in my pre-dawn meditations is to shift the focus from the current in-law legal schmegal to the forgiveness of the trauma flashbacks their antics are triggering. The information...
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Mr G's legal antics arenae staying shuffled off to the side as *simple* articles of Awareness. They fit my bridezilla sisters far better than they fit a grandfather. Can this waddling little man...
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