arfie
Status: knowledge is all past tense. i can't **know** a thing until it has already happened. stay in the present tense. stay ignorant.
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The panic attacks are still coming for both Hubs and I, but I am risking the sin of pride over how well we continue pulling as a team while taking the time for plying individual therapy tools. We are...
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Despite the bumps and dings, yesterday proved to be a restfully productive day. My macho man managed to get the major appliances moved, all by himself. He was walking in an upright position as of...
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The racing thoughts feel like they have dropped in their tracks and created major blockages inside my head. No racing thoughts so far this morning butnae much else is getting through, either and...
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The Indy 500 between my ears continues on its tight spin through the track. The Roadkill Cafe is tending to the needs of machines and man in the pits beneath the bleachers. The painted bimbos are all...
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'Twas a restless nights of unremembered working dreams. I woke with my thoughts racing down charity/welfare/community service lines. The racing thoughts make me believe the dreams were working...
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Yesterday's lean into the doubts, fears and grief didnae slow my progress on the new house any, nor disturb my rest significantly. Radical acceptance of the less pleasant emotions attached to this...
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There remains a big part of me which hopes my son's in-laws will *win* their case and *save* me from this second parenting career. My original notions of grandparenting were of swooping in a few...
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I've been OCDing over, "Over-stimulation" lately. With my hyper-active metabolism, over-stimulation has been a BIG subject for my entire life. Since the protective custody shuffle in August was...
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I am growing to be quite a firm believer in the philosophy of, "Gently embracing the pain" or "Leaning gently into the pain." This hard, hard job of grieving the death of my son and the abrupt end of...
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Sometimes life is just plain hard and just plain hurts. Those painful difficulties arenae ever isolated events in my life. One thread always leads to another. In my graphic imaginings, the artwork...
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The crooning co-worker who helped me gain control of my construction performance anxiety is floating in my head again. Mind you, I amnae complaining. His silky tenor is welcome in my head, any time....
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The new house is beginning to feel like home. It doesn't really feel "New" with its place so near to the old house but there is no question of the upgrade in amenities. The luxury of sitting on a...
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The three young orphans in our care have generated enough Christmas charity that I feel a danger of becoming a Goodwill Donation Center. Been there before many times and am feeling a bit squeemish...
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I am still squeemish about furnishing the new house with the "Permanency Hearing" still pending. The quiet voice is urging me to proceed as though it is decided and Big Bro is fully expecting the...
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To the best of my knowledge, yesterday's pick up went without a hitch. With these folks, 3 hours late isnae a hitch. We planned on it. I have zero evidence that puctuality is even on their...
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