these feelings
feel like a dunce among my friends from high school
wish i could lick my wounds and get on with my life
got to take care of myself cause no one else will
got to do something with my life - not for them
but for me
to carry me through - and what's it all for?
l want to love taking caring of my life
and after all's said and done - it's art that I am making
expression of one
sustaining a life
where I am interacting with others
and yet coming back to lick my wounds in this
hermetic but kind of universal way of life.
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Well it’s a start. I can see things to change and say better
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I’ve thought about a lot of things today to try and draw understanding for those around me as we each have a job to get done. There’s a compassion there to see we’re each juggling a method. I was inspired by the gospel of St.. Mark that said those who are the best are the alpha and omega. I’m just seeing how managers in any business do that with their employees. The manager turns the light on and locks the door at night. After my call with my friends I started to go south, I started to sense that I am unavoidably me. II won’t give up. We each respond to different things and probably seem like a broken record to those around us but I also have a conscience which has me reaching for well meaning intentions, achievements and compassion.
Time and Again Mark you seek out what is positive in a challenging situation, or with a person who is challenging. You shift your sails to find a different wind to take you to a place where You Feel You Succeed in over coming the previous negativity.
Personally, I was on fb for a long time. In hs I wasn't one of the popular, or smart students. When I go on fb and read of their lives, travels, I feel less than...so I stopped...I wanted responses, I wanted emoj's, and attention. Sometimes it came, some times not...in the end, I feel better for not getting caught up in the drama of fb.
thanks Mary Louise!! xx
Embrace your inner weirdo Mark and your sense of bohemian rhapsodies. I think you’re interesting and cool and smart!! And so much more! Don’t compare with high school. Who you are is at your core and not at high school surface level.