Worries at the end of a long day
Also the habit of ruminating as a way to fill my life when alone. Tomorrow is another day. I’m listening to the Newshour on the radio.
I'm spinning to such a greater degree that I think there is something new to understand about myself.
and I started to just vascilate. I questioned 'do others experience this kind of unknowing about which direction
to move in?' and then I just thought and came back down to earth. "I have to get ready to deal with tomorrow."
That's the issue. I know there are aspects of my life that I cannot know or perhaps have to accept that
my experience is unique to myself but also live in the commonality that we each get our turn in the limelight
and the demand for our survival. I don't know what the future holds for me - but I am focusing on
learning the priestly duties here - and getting used to living in a commune of sorts. Making time
for myself and maybe also learning to trust my faculty - so that I can or would talk about the observations
I make. The elder is seriously a weird guy. He thinks his s--t doesn't stink. He constantly speaks from
a place of judgement and controlling everyone - I don't buy into it.
Worries at the end of the day - ? Do I want to download my feelings and thoughts with a loved one
or simply make a plan to do something fun tonight - like go for a walk and grab a slice of pizza?
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I think that we all go through uncertainties sweetie
I'm not surprised that things seem to be spinning at times there have been so many huge changes and you're so busy
But I also think when you've needed some time or space you've spoken up and I think that's wise sweetie
I hope that you continue to reach out for what you need
Big hug for you and Bluey...xo
PS...Pizza is always a winner!!
Thanks Janet!
I’m about to go down to chapel.
Last night I was feeling strong and good and that moment something undercut me and now it’s like I’m walking, stepping on myself.
I’m knowing we all are unique and deal with our uniqueness differently.
I wish my head didn’t have to undercut when I’m feeling strong and good
i doesn't have to buy your shit to accept and even admire it. i can take what works for me and leave the rest. i doesn't even need to like pizza in order to join you for yours.
i wish i didn't have to do my daily bowel movement, but the sooner begun, the sooner done.
we all have assholes and good health requires we use them daily.
Um…..ok
When you can see the truth of how what others say and do in the name of 'work', and you know that is exactly what affects your balancing in a way that is personal and professional at the same time, you're doing the 'work' in a positive direction.
You are learning how to separate the professional from the personal in this particular environment which is both a living and working together situation. Finding that 'you' moment, awesome work!
I would gladly join you for a slice of pizza! That strong and good feeling energy is within you!
All the lessons you are sharing, you are working to find a way that brings a better balance naturally.
Thanks Mid!!