we are like squirrels

I went to the pub today. I had a glass of wine and some sweet potato fries.

I came home and did a bunch of chores.

I have been struggling with my spirituality and my nature at times -

I do believe in having morals and an ethos in life and a pathos.

It's what I am about but

I shouldn't also not forget that I have an animal side in me

that is 'just surviving'.  Sometimes I come up against that part of me

and fight it like it ought not to exist. And we each have different sizes of that

within us. I realized today we are like squirrels - fighting, scratching and biting (figuratively).

We have our human emotions - and we have our spirituality in the face of our animal natures

and the limit of those animal natures - what the animal sides make us prone to do - rather than 

have heavenly relationships or existence. It's strikes me as weird at times

that we are all out there just trying to survive like squirrels or any other kind of a creature.

Collecting acorns, stashing acorns for the future... Reproducing to create the next generation...It all seems so simple, that we

are not much more than that. But I do believe our spirituality might be us facing

our animal sides and knowing there is more out there. I often wish there were something

magical to life. I also am a monarchist too .....it just makes me feel like someone out there cares.

I understand its social role and cultural role. I think having it in the UK effects all English speaking

countries for the good. I just know that I have been trying to understand my emotions and feelings

as something in unison with my spirituality - when in fact maybe I need to consider them separate

in the face of including their dynamic regarding the dark or animal side. I know I've said

life is about taking care of life and keeping it going. And also my signature keep on keeping on.

My relationship to this is just evolving and growing. Peace.