I have a meeting in Long Island this Saturday

I have a meeting on Long Island with a fellow clergyman

on Saturday. I will have a lot of questions for him.

I am hoping he can give me some direction as to how to manage

the political craziness that is happening here right now at the monastery.

I am also hoping that if he says that it will not pass then he might advise me

where I can move to beyond there. I will be candid about my mental health struggle

and how this place where I am has had a great influence on my stability.

I'll also tell him that involving some professional work in my life is something I have

an interest in as well. I've thinking about getting a real estate license.

I love pretty homes and I loved renovating them in my 30s. 

It's just something that I am thinking of - and it might be a really good fit for me,

if priestly duties don't last. Again this place has been really good for someone like me

and the way it couches me in stability, routine and community. I just feel the pressure

of needing to explore what it is that I want - and quite frankly after all the tumultuousness

and instabilty -I just want to be safe and comfortable with Blue.