Sometimes when I’m alone
If i don't have something to do
or something scheduled
and i just have time to feel
I get get kind of lonely or
realize I am kind of lonely and sad and then my mind starts to manufacture thoughts of
people to reach out to and why I shouldn't call them. A kind of paranoia type thing. My sense of woe can build up.
i can be drawn towards making a bad decision and predicting bad results because i might just be existing in my feelings rather than holding a focus and a consciousness when i have nothing in front of me to focus on.
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Can you maybe go to get coffee somewhere to be around people?
Thanks Becky! A good idea. I need to create some activity here too. I’m with people all day long, I just need to deal when I’m alone too.
All of humanity's problems stem from man's inability to sit quietly in a room alone. Blaise Pascal,
i've gotten lost in blaise more than once. he was a hard man to pigeon hole. still is. as of this post, i now wonder if i can use blaise's imagery to personify yours. first a haircut? just wondering.
your awareness is an awe inspiring step toward fixing the ? ? ? problem? is it a problem?
thanks arfie!
it seems this post is a good first step towards now plodding one step in front of the other - different things - to fill my life.
I love DS.
and no pity parties! at least to know that's what I am doing is important!
I remember after my divorce back in 2012, I was alone for the first time in my life.... I was going through horrible feelings of loss and isolation and they don't make a pill that can cure a depression that deep and that intense.... Nobody around me except me myself and I....so I had to learn to be my own best friend. From the time I got up in the morning, until I went to bed at night, I would gently talk myself through the day. I gave myself encouragement along the way. One day I looked up at the sky and I said, "If there is a God, give me a sign.
Then I forgot I asked and went about my daily business. I opened my back door and I was face to face with the most beautiful butterfly I ever saw. He slowly flew two circles around me, paused and flew up over the roof of the house and was gone. I will stop here for now but suffice to say that things were never the same after that. In a good way.
When you have another lonely moment like that, just ask for a sign and you will get one.
Jesus said, "If you knew who walked beside you on the road that you have chosen, fear would be impossible."
Peace
thanks bob. that is really beautiful! peace!
are you saying pity party like it's a bad thing? i despise other people feeling sorry for me, but i find great cathartic value in throwing myself a dramatic pity party. pity pots in every corner. sit a healing spell.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=boMrTKZuvaQ
trivia tidbit.
gilbert rondstat is one of the celebrated founding fathers of tuscon, arizona.
he is best known as, "linda rondstat's father.
Thanks Arfie! Haha