Different thinking
Sometimes thinking about what I neef to do, and understanding the models or patterns of what that is, the initial designs, leaves me feeling insatiably exhausted. I've realized I need to think differently at that point.
i have some inspiration for some work I want to do, but now I have to be responsible only for myself and get the work done. It's about going from like a sensitivity for the impact on others of the work and then implementing and building it all. Understanding there are different modalities of thought has helped me so much. It was a realization brought on by the great Christine Lagarde, who I admire so much, when she was talking about monetary policy in Europe. What she said rang true.
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I’m trying to keep inspired, someway somehow to keep on keeping on and get my work done:)
Big hug and a blessing sent sweetie...xo
thanks Jannie!
Sometimes you just gotta take a deep breath and remember you’re in your body
my life is taking order and shape though. I'm dealing with the disappointments and challenges in my life
here at the monastery and within myself. Things are a struggle - but things are a struggle for most - it's life. :)
I am starting to give myself some direction while also working at the regimented schedule that I have
here at the monastery. I feel healthy - though beleaguered at times with my spastic mind.
It's been hard to follow through in my life with my natural talents because it seemed that my
talents and self wouldn't always 'show up.' It seemed I was ever changing and ever having a new 'self.'
Now I am feeling like I am coming from a stronger sense of self - a sense of good relationships in my life,
a sense of appetite as well as intellectual clarity. And healthy sense of hierarchy that stabilizes me in the world
and while I am alone - everyone gets there own plot of green so to speak - with the things we like to
work away at.
I will always have ups and downs - but maybe now I can better 'get back on the horse' on my own - and to put away
that malady well enough - if not ever all - to keep effective and productive
I also know I also have this support group and my friends and family to come back to. I may get ‘stuck’ sometimes on the way things are handled by myself or the ways others handle things with me but I’ll keep mindful that it’s what’s on my mind rather than feel lost without direction best I can.
I think that you do an amazing job of "being effective and productive"
Even when you aren't feeling great Marky you "keep on keeping on" and that takes will and courage my friend...xo
Thanks Janet!