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up and down day. have to start packing for road trip. i have def had better day. but i will overcome any negative feelings. i have to realize i have that power. no one else can do for me what i can...

another day. little worn down today. just tired. think all the stress of the last few weeks is just hitting me. I leave tomorrow for out of town job. keeps me busy and my minded occupied so i have...

it's a new day! And I am still here and still proving I can do it. For so long I depended on someone else for my strength. Now I have me to depend on. My counselor figured me out. I need to become...

have a session with my counselor in few hours. first time one on one. Hoping I walk out of there with some kind of sense as to what to do. Makes you wonder how your life can be so wacked out in such...

feeling little anxiety today. I dont really know why. I just wake up that way. Going shopping later with a friend. Need to get away from my environment. I see all these things on a daily basis. I...

tired after yesterday. the phone call was a little upsetting for a bit. it was going good til then. but still upbeat right now. he talks to lots of people bout our problems but cannot face me. oh...

back home again after out of town work. I did connect with my counselor before I left and I have appointment for Tuesday. first time I see him by myself. We always went as a couple. But I did tell...

Another day gone and another day of empowerment. I am trying my best to be more uplifted. I don't want to give him any more power over me than what he has. I feel down one moment but think of all I...

flipping the dial on my life today. I am going on and I will not let him drag me down where he is going. I  will do whatever is necessary to wipe him from my mind. The nc rule is going to empower...

new to this so not sure what I am doing. I have recently separated from hubby of 27 years. Actually we separated once last year got back together for 6 months and he left again. Not sure what the...

Ok so this coaster ride is still going. But I seem to get off it more often now. We can talk civil but i've learned, via my counselor, to not believe a lot of what he says. He can and always has been...

yesterday's journal sounded like a rampage. Sorry if anything I said offended anyone. I vent and then regret what came out. I have lots of issues that I never thought I would have. I will work thru...

You aren't the only one kicking my ass these days. i know what needs to be done. I know He's toxic and it is over. I know! I know! I know!It's easy to say what I should do. Right now there is NO...

Just few minutes so thot I would jot something down. 5:30 is too early to be starting out in the cold. Ex sent usual message for deposit. Evidently check wasn't as much as usual. ( so he says). Tried...

yes I am in the power seat for once. I love it here!. Throughout this whole thing I have felt like I have been knocked down. It's about time I get back in the drivers seat. Watch out bubba, I am...