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So after some self discipline it's come to my mind "why do I let him get to me?"I am going to do my best to not let it happen again. After all if he thinks he can then he will keep it up. My mind. My...

Feeling low after yesterday. My high crashed when I heard xass called son bout baby. Wish we could just wipe him out of our lives.

Spent yesterday with the new family. That baby is just too cute!! Can't help but feel a tug on my heart every time I see him. Gives my life a whole new meaning. You kind of forget all the heartache...

So I was patiently (ok impatiently ) waiting the birth of my grandson. I get call from stepdaughter checking on any news. Ok anyway seems xass has his ho gf keeping tabs on his kids thru fb. Get a...

another day passes and yet I am still here!! woohoo! just kidding. My days are so much better. Been having a few anxiety feelings going thru me last couple of days but been fighting them. No meds....

Too hot around here to think. I had little "what if" moment over the weekend but now I am bouncing back. Still waiting for callback from atty. I figure I will just have to accept whatever. My life is...

So I went on line to csea to see how the support payments were figured out. X has sent more than ordered the last 2 weeks. Anyway as I looked I noticed that the money he owed me in arrears has been...

my left calf is killing me! I keep getting this cramp in it. Tried everything to get rid of it. Yellow mustard (AWFUL ALONE) tonic/seltzer water, heat, massage, ibuprofen. It is better if I am on my...

shower is over. the day has come and gone. Did I reflect? No.A niece of his was invited to the shower. She has always been close to me and her kids are good friends with my son. The d-i-l she brought...

today is a day if life had dealt differently would of been my 29th anniversary. BUT i believe that my life is where it should be. I am happy. Really happy. I am without all that fear and doubt that I...

Just an update. I took steps to find out what to do if x doesn't pay. And I feel empowered. I also made sure that it got back to him he better pay or else the courts will see him very soon. Just...

I feel myself being uplifted every day. I thank the Lord for all he has given me and all he has walked me through. I know I wouldn't have made it this far if he hadn't been there for me.So this is...

Just did 2 days at 1st job. Next 2 at 2nd. 1 @ 1st. 3 @ 2nd. You following? LolWent in for thyroid check up today. Convinced doc to bypass bloodwork since had it 6 months ago and hadn't changed in...

I got to sleep in this morning. don't have to be at work on 1st job til noon. ahhhh not hearing that alarm at 5 a.m. was so nice.still working through all these stages. The anger isn't as strong. It...

so it is father's day. I got up. went to church. and sat their and listened to how fathers are supposed to be. I felt for my sons. They weren't there but I still hurt. How do I get over this feeling?...