nohappy

Another day gone and another day of empowerment. I am trying my best to be more uplifted. I don't want to give him any more power over me than what he has. I feel down one moment but think of all I...

flipping the dial on my life today. I am going on and I will not let him drag me down where he is going. I  will do whatever is necessary to wipe him from my mind. The nc rule is going to empower...

new to this so not sure what I am doing. I have recently separated from hubby of 27 years. Actually we separated once last year got back together for 6 months and he left again. Not sure what the...

Ok so this coaster ride is still going. But I seem to get off it more often now. We can talk civil but i've learned, via my counselor, to not believe a lot of what he says. He can and always has been...

yesterday's journal sounded like a rampage. Sorry if anything I said offended anyone. I vent and then regret what came out. I have lots of issues that I never thought I would have. I will work thru...

You aren't the only one kicking my ass these days. i know what needs to be done. I know He's toxic and it is over. I know! I know! I know!It's easy to say what I should do. Right now there is NO...

Just few minutes so thot I would jot something down. 5:30 is too early to be starting out in the cold. Ex sent usual message for deposit. Evidently check wasn't as much as usual. ( so he says). Tried...

yes I am in the power seat for once. I love it here!. Throughout this whole thing I have felt like I have been knocked down. It's about time I get back in the drivers seat. Watch out bubba, I am...

the last couple of days have been trying. I dont know y he thinks i believe anything he tells me now when he has always lied. guess that takes guts on his part. but his daughter did call him out for...

another go-round with the ex. He had talked to his daughter and she in turn called me. He made a few comments that he later denied (duh? think he wouldn't?) but I called him on them anyway. He is...

missed a few days here. with working the weekend and just being busy I guess something had to be forgotten.I feel so much better. Just like a switch was turned. I know my life will go on. I just need...

I don't really want to become a hateful person. I am a beautiful person inside and I don't want to give him one tiny little piece of that beauty. He's a selfish, immature person. He always turns it...

I def want off this ride. I know god is giving me strength. I feel it more and more each day. I just have to NOT let the negativity back to ruin what he gives me. I continue to pray and I know I will...

I am really really trying to be a strong person. I cant seem to get the ex out of my system. I have to learn to be more patient. Just because I want something to happen doesn't mean it will happen...

wasnt up to journal yesterday. I seemed to have caught a bug while working saturday. It just kicked the rug right out from under me. Plus I think all this mental fatigue is catching up. It's hard...