Another day gone and another day of empowerment. I am trying my best to be more uplifted. I don't want to give him any more power over me than what he has. I feel down one moment but think of all I have and smile. I smile! I have a lot to live for and to b thankful for. God gave me two wonderful sons and 5 beautiful step-daughters. Most of which stand behind me. (1 exception) All are as confused as the other. But I am determined. I am strong. And I WILL go on with or without him. He has what he wants. His truck, his loneliness and his guilt. He can have all of it. I have love, family and a strong will and the assurance I did nothing to cause this.