nohappy

I had my tears. I prob still will. But right now it's all good. I feel a weight slowly lifting. My mama said it all. She went thru a cheater (stayed with for us 5) and lots of loneliness. She...

why am I in a cryin jag today? why did it hit me last night out of the blue? It was just a frickin piece of paper to finalize the last 3 yrs. get over it!

I am so done in. so tired. emotionally and physically. today was a long one. in court hallway for over 2 hrs waiting for the 2 attys to come to some kind of agreement. and then I had to accept...

I'm up in person and I'm up in spirit. can't sleep so here I am on here. One last moment of drawing strength from all these powerful women and men who have already gone through what I will today. I...

so I am hopefully on the eve of my divorce. 9 am in the morn. I hope it ends tomorrow. I am feeling so many emotions today. thank you lord that I work for at least 8 hours to get my mind off this...

Headin to 1st part time job. 2 day work this weekend. After working 2nd part time last 4 days. Seems like that's my life now. But money helps. All for the good.

Oh how I would love to soak my feet for a day or two. Like being out in public. hate being on feet all day. and I have a manager who likes to bark out the orders. lots of complaints from fellow...

as the final (hopefully) day approaches I have so many things going through my mind. all these years and I find myself trying to analyze them. Why did I stay for so long? Would my life be different...

worked 3rd shift last night. got feeling of nausea around 3 am. still having 3 hurs to go. feel like crap today. add to that the fact still no money. WTF? I get so tired of his games. I need to pay...

so you would figure that with such a short time til court date (1 week) the last thing he would not do is pay his support. Or at least make sure his company follows through with court order. Then...

seems like my life is echoing my past. this is friday and still nothing from x for support. I will give til monday then call lawyer. last time it came on monday. usually wednesday but i have learned...

Neck and chin are so colorful!! Lol. The bruises showed up Saturday after my fall. Little sore still but all parts moving. So tired! 9 days straight working. Worked til 6 this morning then hair appt...

working again today. and again? who's idea is it to work everyday? lol.. I need a day off soon. all kinds of things getting backup around here. I can't get into cleaning if I have to leave for work...

working 2 jobs even tho part time is hectic. esp when the 2nd one keeps offering me more hours. but I am doing it. money will come in handy.so last night or I should say early this morning i go to...

I am so so tired. this old body isn't used to being on its feet for 10 long long hours. up and down forty steps. working on concrete. all that bending and lifting and up and down those dang stairs!!!...