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the last couple of days have been trying. I dont know y he thinks i believe anything he tells me now when he has always lied. guess that takes guts on his part. but his daughter did call him out for...

another go-round with the ex. He had talked to his daughter and she in turn called me. He made a few comments that he later denied (duh? think he wouldn't?) but I called him on them anyway. He is...

missed a few days here. with working the weekend and just being busy I guess something had to be forgotten.I feel so much better. Just like a switch was turned. I know my life will go on. I just need...

I don't really want to become a hateful person. I am a beautiful person inside and I don't want to give him one tiny little piece of that beauty. He's a selfish, immature person. He always turns it...

I def want off this ride. I know god is giving me strength. I feel it more and more each day. I just have to NOT let the negativity back to ruin what he gives me. I continue to pray and I know I will...

I am really really trying to be a strong person. I cant seem to get the ex out of my system. I have to learn to be more patient. Just because I want something to happen doesn't mean it will happen...

wasnt up to journal yesterday. I seemed to have caught a bug while working saturday. It just kicked the rug right out from under me. Plus I think all this mental fatigue is catching up. It's hard...

up and down day. have to start packing for road trip. i have def had better day. but i will overcome any negative feelings. i have to realize i have that power. no one else can do for me what i can...

another day. little worn down today. just tired. think all the stress of the last few weeks is just hitting me. I leave tomorrow for out of town job. keeps me busy and my minded occupied so i have...

it's a new day! And I am still here and still proving I can do it. For so long I depended on someone else for my strength. Now I have me to depend on. My counselor figured me out. I need to become...

have a session with my counselor in few hours. first time one on one. Hoping I walk out of there with some kind of sense as to what to do. Makes you wonder how your life can be so wacked out in such...

feeling little anxiety today. I dont really know why. I just wake up that way. Going shopping later with a friend. Need to get away from my environment. I see all these things on a daily basis. I...

tired after yesterday. the phone call was a little upsetting for a bit. it was going good til then. but still upbeat right now. he talks to lots of people bout our problems but cannot face me. oh...

back home again after out of town work. I did connect with my counselor before I left and I have appointment for Tuesday. first time I see him by myself. We always went as a couple. But I did tell...

Another day gone and another day of empowerment. I am trying my best to be more uplifted. I don't want to give him any more power over me than what he has. I feel down one moment but think of all I...