Allora
Status: Today is a brand new day - fresh with no mistakes in it. Yet.
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Ugh.I can't seem to kick the insomnia. When I do sleep, it has to be during daylight.This is ridiculous and I know it. When I curl up in bed, I start thinking. And thinking. My brain goes to...
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I wrote this on Nov. 12, 2006 when I was in IC (long before the affair.)It's amazing how well it resonates with today. The Power of NothingThirty spokes converge upon a single hub; It is on the...
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I've been a bit stir crazy. Our oldest son is off at college which has put considerable financial burden on our already overburdened selves, and that's meant no date nights, and worse, no get away...
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The unsent letter - unsent because she never wrote it, so I wrote it for her. Why not?(Not proofread - sorry for mistakes and typos. Needed to barf it all out while it was in my head.)Allora,To say...
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Now that the weekend is past, I can breathe a little easier. I did torture myself by signing on to my son's facebook account to see wedding photos. Of course I was critical and petty in my...
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Lucky me. I got to fall apart. Again. For the zillionth time in two years. Remember the letter I sent to OW's fiance? I got notice back that it was signed for and received. He married her...
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I sent the letter. It too until August to do it, because even after deciding I wanted to write it, I had to sort of feel out the possible consequences in my mind. I also wanted to talk it over...
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I've been sitting on the idea of writing him a letter but I had no way of getting it to him. I tried getting a contact phone number, FB account info, or ANYTHING after DDay, but I kept hitting dead...
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After much discussion and many tears, H and I finally came to somewhat of an understanding. OW has to die. No, I'm just kidding. OK. Well. I DID say that, but I guess it's not a realistic...
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Last "weekend" (Huz's days off) was argument fest. We couldn't get anything done without breaking into some sort of argument. It was frustrating and heart breaking. At the end, I told H that I...
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I hate her. I HATE her. I FUCKING HATE HER.No.No, nothing new happened. There is no "trigger" that caused me to be worried about OW or to drag me back into this horrid cycle. I've just been...
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It was good to see responses to my last post. I guess just having people validate my feelings and say, "I know what you mean," leaves me feeling less frustrated. Much love to y'all for taking the...
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OK. So, fate or G*d or some other entity beyond my knowing clearly doesn't want that previous story out there. I can't go through typing it again, nor do I want to go through the retelling. Too...
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Dear DS: Thanks for eating my journal post. Thanks for no auto-save. You fucking suck. ME
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I haven't bought a dress in YEARS. Like. I don't know. A decade? No joke. I have a few long hippie dippy skirts that I love, but I need a for realsies dress to wear to the 40th anniversary...
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