Allora
Status: Today is a brand new day - fresh with no mistakes in it. Yet.
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I have spent the greater part of the last six years volunteering with the same organization. The day prior to DDay I invested the whole day in a large scale project and was feeling so proud of...
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Seriously?We were SO not on the same page yesterday. I'd dance forward, he'd do a jumping spin and knock me in the teeth. I'd pull away and offer up a seductive sway, and he'd turn his back to me...
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Yesterday was rough. It was another texting fiasco. I had been on his phone checking things out when I saw some disturbing texts. Nothing over the top disturbing. I was grateful after our...
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Up, down, up, down...Just when it feels like things are going well... crash and burn.In the early months after DDay, it was mostly because every little thing set me off. I was a wreck. My pulse...
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Just sorta realized that if my husband and I had followed my grandmother's advice, we'd both be in a better place.She told me that marriage was a garden that needed daily tending - and to find joy in...
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Two weeks ago I was suicidal. (Maybe three?) I couldn't take the pain, anymore. I really felt like nothing would ever, ever change. Then I started looking at options and realized that there...
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Well, except this isn't my first journal entry, just my first here. I have my own blog which I've kept since late 1999, but it doesn't feel safe to write there after finding out the OW had stalked...
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Up most of the night last night. The comments on my last journal post were what I needed to hear. I know I need to snap myself out of this.I feel like a giant sponge of need - like no matter how...
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When I was in high school one of my friends ran away from home. Like - forever ran away. I wasn't that close to her at that point, so I didn't know that she was going to until after the fact. I...
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Tomorrow is our 17th wedding anniversary.Mixed feelings. Last year I was heavily medicated for my slipped disc and still in a daze, only a month out from DDay. We went a town away for spa...
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I'm such an idiot.Poking around on Amazon I went looking for a friend's wishlist. Well, yeah, brilliant, I decided to see if OW had a Wishlist. Ya can tell a lot about a person by the crap they...
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Two years ago today my dad (who raised me - not biodad) died. I don't think H realizes or remembers. I was never close with my dad, not even after Mom died. In a lot of ways, I took family...
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My thanks to the author of the post about "blessings". Definitely a big fat reminder.I made it through November - OW's birthday, H's birthday, Thanksgiving...Made it through 1st DDay anniversary. ...
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Seriously can't kick this funk. H "dragged" me outside (not literally, heheh) to help him split logs. Being out in the sun and moving about undoubtedly helped, but now I just want to go back to...
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Ugh. Angry. Bitter. Resentful. I don't know if this is lash back from the depression funk I've been in, A related, PMS, or if the whole world really is out to piss me off. H is home for most of this...
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