i hate myself.............

i am so fat!!!!!!!!! i hate the fact that i'm so fat and that i hafta restrict to be skinny......i HATE that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i don't like myself.....i give great advice and i can never accept it myself.....no wonder i don't have a boyfriend......asdajbfoauehoqubwrebqwebb.......my mind is all jumbled right now.....i don't like who i am, but i don't feel so bad about myself....i mean, i DO but i dunno.....feel kinda numb....gotta restict......that's not really an option i have to.....