TODAY WAS WORSE....
Late Saturday night: Today, June 21, 2008, was the 1 yr. date of Scott's funeral. It was actually worse than the 17th. I remember when they closed the lid I knew that would be the last time I would ever see my "boy" on this earth. Craig went out tonight. I am a little miffed at him. He went to the races with a friend. I don't care about that but he apparently made tentative plans yesterday and didn't bother to share that info. So, by the time I found out I couldn't make any of my own. I will talk to him about that. I spent the day "alone" at my garage sale and the evening alone watching "The Bucket List." I don't mind being alone if it is planned and/or I expect it. I am feeling pretty lonely these days, though. There is a difference. No plans tomorrow except sleeping late and straightening the garage back up. Monday I am going to pick one of my favorite students up and take him on a picnic. I am looking forward to that. It will do me good to see him and also to do something for someone else. Aside from that I have no plans this week. Although, as far as I know one of my best friends is coming in from Kansas for a visit Friday or Sat. I don't count on anything, however.
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Try to find something each week that is just for you...I have found that this gives me something to look forward to...shopping,pedicure,walking...whatever...maybe yours will be the visit from your friend...love and hugs...Karen
I am glad that you are taking the time to spend with your student. You both will enjoy yourselves. Hope your friend makes it in and you have a wonderful time. Love and Hugs.
I to found out that Justin\'s funeral was alot harder on me too.I try so hard to stand tall.You are so blessed with having contact with many of Scott\'s friends.Enjoy your day with your student.Thinking of you.jfm21,Vicki
I know what you mean about when you see them for the last time (on earth) at the funeral before they close the casket. Such tremendous pain and agony.
I sometimes find myself thinking I just want to go dig him up and bring him home. Hope that doesn\'t sound strange ... it\'s just part of me wanting to fill that empty hole in my heart. I miss him so.
I hope maybe you\'re feeling a little better now.
How was the movie ? I\'ve been thinking about renting it.
Thinking of you alot the past few days, and today.
love, Kelly
Oh, I so much understand. I have to block it out of my mind or I will go crazy. Have a good day with your student. I think that will be nice for you. Please take care. Love lucille
I still cannot remember John\'s funeral very clearly. I have little snips and not much else. I just wish we didn\'t have these anniversaries. Enjoy your picnic and do something just for you. Love and hugs cathy