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Dear DS diary,For the last two weeks I've been trying to work with my therapist -- who knows about what haunts me and what it has done to me as a person -- about trying to expose myself to new...

I can't go heavy into details right now, but my problems with putting my past in its place reared its ugly head again early this morning, and one awful 40 minute breakdown later I'm out of a social...

Dear DS diary,This was a difficult week for sleeping.  I finally got hooked up with my life coach, but not before I had freakout nightmares both the two nights before I saw him and the two nights...

Dear DS diary,There are entries that are calls for HELP, and then there are those that just make me think, "?".  This is one of the latter times.So, we finally had a breakthrough in therapy...

I just conceded on Facebook that if I want to grow my fitness group on Facebook, I'm going to have to learn how to do it on my own.  I have means to do that, but it's also conceding that there are...

Dear DS diary,There was a carjacking late last week in Revere that ended up with a 15-year-old (?) being interviewed at length by police practically across the street from my day job.  This led to...

This is short and sweet.  I'd like to do another vocal cover for YouTube, but I don't feel like trying to find a "mood" song, if you know what I mean.  So this time, I'm letting my DS and FB...

Dear DS diary,It's no secret that I don't trust people.  I've already seen to it that I've ruined my parents' mood for a party involving immediate family tomorrow because I know I am only going to...

Dear DS diary,Last night my parents dragged me out to dinner...again. :(  Personally, I hate it with a passion.  If there's anything that can be said for it, working with my coach (fitnesschik) has...

Dear DS diary,There are times when it's necessary to take a step back.  This weekend is one of those times, with the way things have been going lately.  It really has been a drag.Yesterday at...

Dear DS diary,It appears that my inconsistencies with sleep have finally noticeably caught up with me.  Earlier this week, I felt very sluggish and actually winked off a couple of times because I...

Today was a difficult day.  I was hoping to do a workout today...it never came off.  Things kept happening, and with the way I've been sleeping lately it's no surprise that tonight I have no...

I still do occasional videos for YouTube, although that may be picking now that I've decided to vlog about my new fitness journey.  (Don't worry, this is not an "I'm going to spend hours doing...

Dear DS diary,Last night my parents decided to go on a whim out to to dinner after we had gone candlepin bowling in Wakefield.  I really didn't want to rock the boat so I just said I would go along...

Just a few thoughts tonight.  Not sure if this is 100% clean, so I put the warning into the title.* I'm starting to think that my parents are toxic.  All they do over meals is bitch, moan, and...