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Dear DS diary,With the way my anxiety has been running lately, it was really only a matter of time before my defenses would break with some of my nightmares.  So I really wasn't shocked to see them...

Dear DS diary,Today, it just feels like my heart is in a very bad place...again.I had another breakdown -- I was due for one -- at work.  I managed to slip into the bathroom and allow it to take...

Some of my memories are coming back with regards to this family party next week that I definitely don't like.The one in question this time doesn't seem to relate too well, but somehow needs to come...

Dear DS diary,As I am typing this I am trying out listening to nature sounds on YouTube, courtesy of the suggestion of a couple of friends.  If I sleep any better at all tonight, they might want to...

Here's the VGM for Stage 3 (Moon Beach) from the Mega Drive version of Streets of Rage.  The entire soundtrack for this game was incredible, but the music for this stage was particularly upbeat. ...

Dear DS diary,After a few nights of actually being able to sleep through for once, problems with said sleep have come back with what can only be described as a vengeance.  Last night in particular...

Dear DS diary,Today my mother found out that currently my paralegal routine is on a road to nowhere at the moment...I basically told her that in my current condition it's tearing me apart.  We don't...

Dear DS diary,We're now in the season again where members of my family are celebrating their birthdays and I get triggered by them, through no fault of their own, and have to go by myself to have a...

Dear DS diary,Just because my sleep has been a little better, that doesn't mean I'm feeling any better.  In fact, today I'm downright cranky.  It didn't take long to push my parents away for the...

Dear DS diary,I've been starting to sleep a little bit better the last couple of nights.  But it has been three months at least since I have been able to get adequate sleep with any consistency, and...

Dear DS diary,Last night we took my sister and her husband out to dinner for purposes of celebrating their first wedding anniversary, which happens to be today (for a formal celebration they are...

Dear DS diary,This morning I can't even find the words for how I feel, but...it's dark.  Very dark.  So I guess I'll just have to let Chris Cornell Soundgarden do it for me (I actually wanted to...

Dear DS diary,The addiction issues with games are back.  It feels horrible but with my anxiety at unmanageable levels right now it is proving to be far easier to hide than to push.  Even when I'm...

Dear DS diary,As my anxiety episodes are getting worse, the hiding episodes are now getting worse, too.Retro Uprising, a site that lets you play old video games from the '80s and '90s from a variety...

Dear DS diary,Last night was a hard one.  My parents took me out to dinner with one of my uncles.  Normally this is difficult enough because I absolutely hate doing that.  But on this night it was...