i hurt
yeah i know its not end of world. just feels like hell. she loves me as a person but not in love with me. ive known this for months but still hard to deal with. she finally said it. but she keeps me hanging on says shes so confused what can she do. thinking she needs to leave me alone cause she is killing me emotionally. i loved her so much and it was never sex. i have been through so much sick shit sexually honestly i hate it. so it wasnt that for me. so i dont really get it. i was hoping it was cause she was so stressed out at work but she seems to think it wasnt that. im so drained and sad. and feel like im ugly and have nothing to offer and plain out just feel like shit. and was kinda sad when hello its all about me today and got no advice. yes im pathetic and tired and blah.
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You were wishing and hoping for too long my friend. The truth was always right there in front of you. You admit it. You saw it. Yet you chose to ignore it. Pathetic is becoming like those who have hurt you. Acknowledging and honoring what they made you feel. It\'s high time to rise above it. You ROCK. You are a Mom. You are a beautiful caring Spirit. And NOBODY.. not ANYBODY on this Earth can authenticate your soul. It\'s yours. This is YOUR life. Shake it off Girl. Knock it off. Move forward. Head held high. You are a force to be reckoned with because God gave you the innate right to be so.
thank you
Ms Teri said it all~ I can only ad that to embrace those words and to believe in you is a proess that begins w baby steps and gets easier w each step,,,, she has been an addiction, treat it as such~~ healing takes time but i adree youknew all along, but dont blame yourself , it isnt you that failed, you gve and gave and gave now its time to give to yourself in a completely ne and healthy way and let that person come along that would respect and be proud to be w you and want the same things that u do,,,,,, please be gentle w yourself,,,, KD