trying to slow head down and just enjoy. been all over the place with emotions. cry at the drop of a hat. i love my gf and am so happy when i am with her but why do i keep loosing it when im not with her. why am i so insecure. we are both so good when together and both such a mess when we are not. her emotions are just as crazy as mine but hers are not centered areound me as mine are hers. we dont talk and need to cause i need some security. in turmoil at work lost it infront of workers and so need get a grip before loose my job and everything i have worked so hard for.