kinda scared

um feel alot better than i have but i still panic when havent heard from her. we are both so ocd and text same time every night when doesnt happen i get nervous. still scared she gonna distance herself again.  i get naseous and sick to stomach. damn the girl is only ten minutes late getting outta work. breathe. just stopped by my old job and apparently alot of them follow me on facebook and i sound like a miserable beast they told. me. yikes. guess i should sound little more positive. oh god 14 minutes. ya she works in very dangerous place too so im not really only concerned for myself. hope she not working a double her ass will be beat for the whole week and she will be miserable. oh well cant control others only myself. ok its alive and out of work. lol. why cant i be a laid back roll with it non caring woman. why am i so insecure. uggggghhhhh. good night all gonna give craziness a rest