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Woke up at 5:45am, 15 minutes prior to my alarm taking off. Today was Capital Sprints- the regatta that my parent's are in charge of. I had a ton of energy this morning, bouncing up and down. Ate a...

Title explains it all. Fuck this life. I know I always say it's not worth it, but damn fucking shit it sure as fucking hell feels like it today.Today has been horrible. I don't know what to do with...

Just got home from my dietitian appointment. She weighed me at 98 pounds. I weighed myself this morning at 95.9 pounds. Her's is always higher. She literally made an appointment with my doctor to see...

Yesterday was a great day. Got a lot accomplished and had a good day. Tried studying for my practical last night- failed on the studying part. So fucking clue how I did. I came out not thinking I did...

Woke up in a great mood! Well the 4th time I woke up haha. Seriously can't fall asleep at night and then wake up multiple times during the night and I have to change sheets and clothes because of my...

I am now at my parents house and was just looking At baby pictures. My mother then said to me that I have no reason to be depressed and that I bring it upon myself. It's all self made. She said she...

Throughout the day I have been constantly sitting on the verge of tears. My throat is tight because I can feel the anxiety rising and the tears forming. My stomach is in knots. I cannot seem to...

I just got really really upset and broke down for quite sometime. Mom keeps saying that I need clothes that fit. So yesterday I bought two summer dresses for the cruise and showed them to my mom...

Tried sleeping in this morning but my head was killing me and I couldn’t. Still exhausted upon wakening. Last night when I took my meds I realized that I only had one verses my calcium. Hmm I was...

Yesterday's journal:I can't believe that it is the ladt day of June already! This is crazy! Woke up feeling incredibly exhausted again. What is going on with me? My eyes burn and I am physically...

Okay...so here is PART of what went on yesterday...does not include my mother yelling at me because i'm so emotional, me crying for fucking hours on end, plus so much more. Not sure if this will make...

Finally went to bed last night in a decent mood. Woke up in a good mood except for the fact that I am exhausted and my eyes BURNNNN. I haven't been sleeping well at all- it fucking sucks. Pisses the...

A lot of shit went down today. I Was in tears all day. Just crappy and horrible day. Not going to write about it on here.

This morning I was so very upset. At first I tried to just let it roll off my shoulders, but then became angry, and eventually upset enough to make me cry. NO THIS IS NOT TO MAKE MYSELF FEEL BAD...

Dead tired again. Weighed in at #98.8 this morning. Thank Goodness! I was terrified that it was going to go up a lot because of this past weekend and all the nasty fattening foods I ate. I really...