My moods seem to be like a yoyo.

My moods seem to be like a yoyo:  happy/sad, good/bad etc.  You get the idea.  This morning I felt good and thought maybe my six month grieving process is coming to an end.  Now I can feel the sadness take over my body.  It is funny how it can sneak up on you without warning.  I have got to throw Smokey's ashes away at Garry Point.  I would like to do it with someone but might ask my older brother Don.  He is coming over for dinner and I am making meat loaf.  It is nice to cook for someone.  I don't cook for myself just heat up TV dinners.  They don't taste as good as a home made meal.  What about you?  I can get so easily distracted.  I feel like an air head most of the time.  Before Smokey's death, I was a wee bit an air head but not like this.  I am not the same person anymore.  How can we be when we lose a dear one whether spouse, child, parent, relative etc?  Grief is hard.  It seems unbearable when it first happens.  I think it is one of the hardest things a person can do in this life is to lose someone close to them.  I would not wish this on my worst enemy (just an expression).  I wish you all a good weekend and better days to come in your lives.