Not easy being a widow/widower.
It is not easy learning to be a widow. I was so used to be a couple and it was very pleasurable for the both of us. We had fun together and felt like kids all over again. We loved each other deeply. We got in the fun kind of trouble together. We laughed together. We loved together. We hung out together. We were each other's best friend. We were each others soul mates. We were the love of each other's life. Now Smokey is gone and I am learning to be single again. It's not where I planned to be at the age of 54 that is for sure. I am a new grandma as well and that has kept me going. My grandson was born this Wednesday at 9:16 a.m. on June 9, 2010. His name is Tyson Philip. Tyson was born weighing in at 9 lbs. 2 oz. It is an adjustment for Lisa and Grant to be new parents. It is an adjustment for me to be single again at thage age of 54. Wow! What different journeys my daughter and I are on! It is quite amazing. My daughter is starting her journey. I feel like I am at the end of my journey but there can be a few surprises for me along the way. I am open to the possiblities of life and where it can lead me. If you close yourself up, nothing is going to happen. If you leave your self open to the possibilities of what could happen, interesting things can come your way. This is what I am hoping for in my life now. I closed one chapter of my life. A new chapter of my life is just starting to be written. Anyone can read my book.
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What a positive journal entry. Good for you. I\'m glad you\'re starting to feel you\'re heading in the right direction. I\'m sure Smokey is looking down and smiling.
That is a wonderful entry. I feel the same way. I am starting a new chapter in my life. How it plays out is what I put into it. Have fun with that sweet little one. Baby love is awesome. Mary Anne
Diane, having had all of my kids here last weekend and then my son\'s family this weekend, I really know what you\'re talking about.
I look at these young couples, newly in love and married, in their first homes, with their new babies, and I think at what a different place we all are. I try so hard not to bring them down or introduce gloomy ideas to them (Craig was not their father).
I\'m so happy that you are taking delight in Tyson and cementing a new chapter of your relationship with your daughter. New life does dispel the gloom. But yes, they\'re at a very different point in their lives now.
Hugs, Gail
PS I\'d so much rather be a couple with Craig than have all this peace and quiet when the babies aren\'t here or commotion when they are without him.
What a great journal...you are so right about a new journey...that is for sure. I didn\'t think I would be single at 59...like you my husband and I did everything together and were best friends...but a new path is a head for us we just have to let life happen I guess....