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sarah,If I could find a way to turn back time and let you fix what you did to hurt Jon you know I'd let you do it in a heartbeat. But I cant, there is no going back and that means you gotta stop...

Its another night of anxiety, but with my music and deep breathing I've been able to overcome it so far. I'm going to attempt to sleep without nyquil tonight, I just hope this works. I'm still...

trying to find just a bit of happiness on a day when nothing is going right is such a pain. At least I have Enya and my candles. I just wish fighting off this sluggish want to stay in bed all day was...

I cant still feel my heart and chest hurting so much.I want to talk to my boyfriend but I promised myself I'd wait till he contacted me first.....I keep having thoughts that he's spending time with...

I was perfectly fine! I woke up feeling at ease, nothing going through my head then once I went to brush my teeth and looked in the mirror. Out of the blue WHAM! Every stressful thought hit me like a...

I'm going to try to dump out my brain before I go to bed, I dont expect anything I write in this to make a bit of sence but heres to hoping I feel better afterwards.my heart is so heavy, like...

Trying to get on a better sleep schedual is harder than I thought possible. Everynight its an hour after hour battle with my depression to just relax and sleep though meditation does help.  All I...

Practicing breathing, hoping a few minutes of meditation will help me sleep and forget about the stress with my boyfriend and family.  I know I'll never kill myself, ever, but the feeling of wanting...

I actually feel alot better this morning. I decided in the middle of the night last night to message some friends and just vent a little. They were all busy or asleep but I still left a message and...

Over and over again the depression jumps on the slightest bad thought I have and I just crumble! I want to scream right now, I want to punch something and cry my heart out. I need to talk to someone...

sarah,dont you dare let the nightmares and feelings of emptyness keep you in another rut. I've known you to go through far worse and seen you pull yourself out with a beautiful smile. you've been...

I have been trying my damndest to keep the feelings of anger and self loathing at bay. Throwing myself into homework, my job or just hobbies but the thoughts of meaninglessness wont stop digging into...

Another day of rough work at the nursing home then back to my own home to find something to do. I'm doing my best to not let my mind stay on thoughts that make me cringe or the thoughts of what I...

Sometimes before I try to sleep I get this strange feeling that floods the front of my chest near my collar bone. It feels like something is weighing my lungs down and it starts to induce a panic...