working on cosplay

Another day of rough work at the nursing home then back to my own home to find something to do. I'm doing my best to not let my mind stay on thoughts that make me cringe or the thoughts of what I didnt grow up to be. Its difficult, god its so difficult breaking these bad habits down into peices then clearing them away. 

My mind and my heart are like deep wooded kingdoms, overgrown with poisonus flowers. I let them grow because I found them comforting and beautiful but I never once stopped to look around and see that the flowers just wanted to overun my thoughts, my dreams and my emotions. Its going to take some time to clear out even half of these depressing feelings but I have to. I refuse to keep carrying them into motherhood or my career as a teacher.

So! first thing is first, I have cosplays to finish and a new baby to make and carry with me in my purse. I shall keep updating his birth from my blueprints and maybe even think of a good name for him.