holy hell

I actually feel alot better this morning. I decided in the middle of the night last night to message some friends and just vent a little. They were all busy or asleep but I still left a message and this morning they all messaged back with hugs and letting me know they are there if I need to vent again. All of this happy mood has gravely injured my depression and I'm feeling at ease for the first time in weeks! I think I'm slowly realizing I can reach out to people even if they cant respond right away, I actually feel silly for not realizing it sooner and letting my thoughts tell me, " thy dont have time for you just message them tomorrow or...just dont they probably wont respond anyway."